BoReD ~i~

3.53pm In Office 30 Apr 08 Wed

time checked... its 3.53pm... im bored... no better words can describe my current feelings but "bOrEd"... keke ;p

tis feeling ve been wif me n ve been growing as e days go by... guess its cose things r different now... aint e same anymore... simply cose im on ORD mood... keke ;D to be honest... i dislike such behavior... cose i think its aint good... its bad :i however... i cant control myself... as i feel tat its jus aint worth my effort to strive for them...

hmm... recently i ve turning fm good to bad... from bad to worst... n going to reach devilish state... keke ;p

cose i ve been calling them names... from their name's initial to fb1 & fb2... sigh.. n now im losing myself :(

alrite.. recompose my state of mind now...
mE = MiNdLess + sOuLeSs + SeNseLeSs + SiAnZiEr + TiRedNess + ... ... ...
*hmm... wonder anymore to add onz...*

recently been really tired... due to e added responsibilities... where there r times feel like collapsing... but... hmm.. didnt ya... still here :s

think i better stop here... cose mind is not focusing now.. mind is drifting away liao.. kaka ;p

tGiF... ZzzzZzz

11 Apr'08 iN oFFicE 2.36pm fRi

Tired... cose only surviving on 4hrs or lesser amt of sleep... brain can hardly function despite injecting high dosage of caffeine tis morn... n so i ended up buying yang sheng chai after lunch... as tats a powerful drink which can boost up my energy... keke ;p

Many a times i tell myself... u must be professional... u must still hold up to ur job till e very last sec... n i've always done tat for all my previous employment... however... tis time rd... things r slightly different... guess its cose sub-consciously i dun care... n i dun wanna care... haha 8:

Got to stop here... cose wan wan is back.. got to go over to support liao :i

A SeNsE oF ReLieF

03 Apr 08 Thurs In e Office @ CEO section 3.28pm

Instant feeling of relief... as if like a big rock empty fm my heart... i dunno why...

Jus had a tok wif my boss... dun like e feeling though... cose behaving emotional in front of her... makes me feel weak... i dun like it...

Needed tat chat... cose was trying to seek her approval on certain things... but then conditions were laid by her for me to fulfill before she agrees to it... i dislike it... but then it leaves me wif no choice but to abide...

tis is e 1st time we had a open... hmm... or rather a semi-open chat abt a common person... she said it may not be too late to turn ard e situation... however... i wish to deal wif her no more... cose i had enough... n it means enough...

now tat i think abt e whole session... i dun really enjoy but somehow it did make me feel so much better... i dunno why... guess i jus need to really spend more time understanding myself... so as to know wat really went gaga at a certain time...

recently overloaded wif too many 'stuffs' n its somehow causing me to sink as e time goes by... to e stage of drowning... but im letting it be for a moment... as i need to summon up my strength... willpower to get myself out of e situation... i believe i can.. n i know i jus need time...

*wonder* sometimes... how i wish very much tat i ve a shoulder to lean on... or a person dear to me to hold an umbrella sheltering me over all tats happening ;)

~back to work~