dArK mOnDaY
28 Sep 09 mOn aT hOmE 10.08pm
Had a tough day today... its aint any where near PMS... but it jus felt dark... e only word tat comes to my mind when im in search of a description for my Monday...
Lots of things happened today... some caught me by surprised although sub-consciously i knew im expecting it... its jus a matter of time for it to take place...some re-surfaced to make me realised tat i ve yet to get over it... n tat i aint as strong + cool as i think i am... after all im still an ordinary gal who has feelings... some encounters tat exhausted + saddened me for jus trying to play e role of a fren... some existing circumstances which seem rather magnified negatively under such dark monday tat i reacted drastically n ended up affecting others...
Felt like crying but aint gonna do it... using every strength i ve to hold back myself as i am not ready to break down into tears... dun really know why but i guess i jus dun like e feeling of crying at tis moment... as it makes me feel helpless... defeated... weak... emotional...
So e only way out to tis mental release is to write here... virtual diary aka blogging... helps me take away e sorrow & misery in me without bothering another human being...
*Taking a deep & long breath*
Had a tough day today... its aint any where near PMS... but it jus felt dark... e only word tat comes to my mind when im in search of a description for my Monday...
Lots of things happened today... some caught me by surprised although sub-consciously i knew im expecting it... its jus a matter of time for it to take place...some re-surfaced to make me realised tat i ve yet to get over it... n tat i aint as strong + cool as i think i am... after all im still an ordinary gal who has feelings... some encounters tat exhausted + saddened me for jus trying to play e role of a fren... some existing circumstances which seem rather magnified negatively under such dark monday tat i reacted drastically n ended up affecting others...
Felt like crying but aint gonna do it... using every strength i ve to hold back myself as i am not ready to break down into tears... dun really know why but i guess i jus dun like e feeling of crying at tis moment... as it makes me feel helpless... defeated... weak... emotional...
So e only way out to tis mental release is to write here... virtual diary aka blogging... helps me take away e sorrow & misery in me without bothering another human being...
*Taking a deep & long breath*
posted by SkYwiL at 7:04 AM
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