A SeNsE oF ReLieF

03 Apr 08 Thurs In e Office @ CEO section 3.28pm

Instant feeling of relief... as if like a big rock empty fm my heart... i dunno why...

Jus had a tok wif my boss... dun like e feeling though... cose behaving emotional in front of her... makes me feel weak... i dun like it...

Needed tat chat... cose was trying to seek her approval on certain things... but then conditions were laid by her for me to fulfill before she agrees to it... i dislike it... but then it leaves me wif no choice but to abide...

tis is e 1st time we had a open... hmm... or rather a semi-open chat abt a common person... she said it may not be too late to turn ard e situation... however... i wish to deal wif her no more... cose i had enough... n it means enough...

now tat i think abt e whole session... i dun really enjoy but somehow it did make me feel so much better... i dunno why... guess i jus need to really spend more time understanding myself... so as to know wat really went gaga at a certain time...

recently overloaded wif too many 'stuffs' n its somehow causing me to sink as e time goes by... to e stage of drowning... but im letting it be for a moment... as i need to summon up my strength... willpower to get myself out of e situation... i believe i can.. n i know i jus need time...

*wonder* sometimes... how i wish very much tat i ve a shoulder to lean on... or a person dear to me to hold an umbrella sheltering me over all tats happening ;)

~back to work~