SiNFuL AcT
3.41pm iN e OffiCe 29 oCt'10 fRiDaY
Very affected... had to end somebody's 'life' again today.... thought i do have grown out of e emo state of mind... but apparently i didnt.... or maybe its due to e fact that this is different from e previous one.... guess each case is unique on its on...
It's been weeks since this matter surface... e relevant party spoke to me for advice & action.... i did my part... but he drag to decide... and so i let it hang there for a while as i got busy wif other stuffs... until this week... a decision has to be made in order to move on...
He came to me & said he will need me to check wif others whether wanna continue to give continue to e lifespan of that somebody.... sad to say... those that i approached... rejected me... as according to what i know... her existence has been an issue since stone age... and somehow this time... she didnt manage to survive e disaster that she created....
He felt bad to make such decision but he has no choice... he got support from e relevant authority... and jus now together wif him... we broke e news to her... to end her 'life' here....
i heard that she has a history of mental illness (i think its depression)... everyone who know about e decision are concern about her mental health... and i was worried all e time before we meet her...
She sat there quiet after she was told... motionless... head looking down on e floor... sad face but composed.... but when e news started to digest in her.... she weep.... then followed by crying... i tried to console her but to no avail.... it breaks my heart to see her cry.... however i have no choice... its part of what i do to earn a living... finally she accepted her fate... free me from e misery to see her cried in front of me and yet i can do nothing...
She left e room wif me and him experiencing super heavy heart... a strong touch of guilt & agony... and shortly after... he left too in a :( face... for that moment i thought i could contain my emo... but i was wrong... as another him walked in offerring me bread for tea break and another she offerring me coffee... i lost myself.... emo went out of control and i was weeping... how unprofessional...
guess i will have to put in extra effort to manage my emo... to be detached..........................
sAd mE...
Very affected... had to end somebody's 'life' again today.... thought i do have grown out of e emo state of mind... but apparently i didnt.... or maybe its due to e fact that this is different from e previous one.... guess each case is unique on its on...
It's been weeks since this matter surface... e relevant party spoke to me for advice & action.... i did my part... but he drag to decide... and so i let it hang there for a while as i got busy wif other stuffs... until this week... a decision has to be made in order to move on...
He came to me & said he will need me to check wif others whether wanna continue to give continue to e lifespan of that somebody.... sad to say... those that i approached... rejected me... as according to what i know... her existence has been an issue since stone age... and somehow this time... she didnt manage to survive e disaster that she created....
He felt bad to make such decision but he has no choice... he got support from e relevant authority... and jus now together wif him... we broke e news to her... to end her 'life' here....
i heard that she has a history of mental illness (i think its depression)... everyone who know about e decision are concern about her mental health... and i was worried all e time before we meet her...
She sat there quiet after she was told... motionless... head looking down on e floor... sad face but composed.... but when e news started to digest in her.... she weep.... then followed by crying... i tried to console her but to no avail.... it breaks my heart to see her cry.... however i have no choice... its part of what i do to earn a living... finally she accepted her fate... free me from e misery to see her cried in front of me and yet i can do nothing...
She left e room wif me and him experiencing super heavy heart... a strong touch of guilt & agony... and shortly after... he left too in a :( face... for that moment i thought i could contain my emo... but i was wrong... as another him walked in offerring me bread for tea break and another she offerring me coffee... i lost myself.... emo went out of control and i was weeping... how unprofessional...
guess i will have to put in extra effort to manage my emo... to be detached..........................
sAd mE...
posted by SkYwiL at 12:43 AM
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