SkYwiL

TiM TiM...

2012-01-09T08:45:00.000-08:00

12.46am TuE wEE mOrn 10th Jan 2012 iN e RooM...

On 8th January 2012... my beloved dog Tim Tim passed away... she suffered from fits on the night before ard 10+pm.... i was away at a fren's bbq and mama gave her a stronger dosage of medicine... it did calm her down from fidgeting vigorously and we all thought she will be alright after a while as per previous encounters... all of us went to bed that night and e next morning... mama went to check on her to realise that she is still fidgeting slightly and her condition isnt any better... it was nearly 9am then... i struggled up to bring her to vet and i was still rather calm... guess i was mentally prepared on 2 contrary theories... one being just another fit encounters she experienced and she will be fine after seeing e vet... another will be that she is in a serious condition and i may lose her...

At e vet clinic... Vet said that her condition is serious and they put her on oxygen mask + giving her a power jab to stop e fidgeting and she was immediately calm... but she was never conscious after sufferring from the fit that night... which makes me very very sad... that i couldnt see e last conscious her... Tim Tim had to stay in to have her condition monitored by e Vet... Vet said either she will discharge & go home at 4pm or she can get admitted to e pet hospital... at that time... i was still very calm and told vet that i may arrange either my bro or sis to come pick Tim Tim up... however at 2+pm... Vet called to say that Tim Tim had relapsed twice and had a total of 3 jabs but still fidgeting... Vet adviced that i should go down and see her last time then let her go... At that instance... i felt sad and started crying...

Im very glad that brother was with me to go through all these... we went down to e clinic and saw last of Tim Tim... she was lying there fidgeting slightly... unconscious and all sulken... so heartaching to see her in such state... we tried to tok to her and pat her... then Vet asked whether we wanna witness it and we said yes... Vet then brought her out of the cage and put her on the table... gave her a jab of yellowish solution into her dripping tube outlet... and almost instantly she went motionless... gone... Vet said they will do all e necessary arrangements to get Tim Tim cremated and then called us to collect her ash... i was crying on and off as bro was occasionally making jokes of the cat which was in e cage beside Tim Tim's... he had lightened up the atmosphere by alot... and im thankful he's there...

it was e saddest experience in my years of living... though i had lost a few pets during growing up and been sad over BGRs plus many more... but this is e most painful of them all... Tim Tim has been with me for 17 years and she's been part of my growing up... i then came to realise that how actually one feels when one grieves...

it's like you will never see it anymore... and e thoughts makes u sad... e memories of it makes u miss it & saddness sinks in... e photos of it makes u sad too... i cried almost e whole time on sunday despite trying to be rational by going to color my hair... to continue with my life and not letting my grief hold me back from things i had to do...

Decided not to cancel my appt with my frens e next day after work... and so i cried to sleep on sunday night... e next morning i woke up with super puffy painful eyes... didnt actually feel like going to work but still i drag myself to work as i had to visit Malaysia factory + a dinner appt at nite... thought i felt better as e day went by without much difficulty... thought i was more emotionally stable after sunday... but i was wrong as once i reached home... i felt sad... small little things remind me of Tim Tim... her sleeping corner... her green bowl... e memories of her walking non-chalantly into my room and pass me when i was sitting on e floor... she's like police patrolling the premises... and e other times when i would purposely wake her up in e middle of e nite and got her to accompany me to kitchen while i brush my teeth as i was scared... and e other time when i failed my O Level English and i was crying on e floor... she came over and used her paws to crawl my legs signalling me not to cry... and e other times where she will suddenly stand up and walk out of e room while mama, sis & i were chatting away... we reckon she found us too noisy... so many memories...

Wanting to let and go move on... but it just isnt that easy...

SiNFuL AcT

2010-10-29T00:43:00.000-07:00

3.41pm iN e OffiCe 29 oCt'10 fRiDaY

Very affected... had to end somebody's 'life' again today.... thought i do have grown out of e emo state of mind... but apparently i didnt.... or maybe its due to e fact that this is different from e previous one.... guess each case is unique on its on...

It's been weeks since this matter surface... e relevant party spoke to me for advice & action.... i did my part... but he drag to decide... and so i let it hang there for a while as i got busy wif other stuffs... until this week... a decision has to be made in order to move on...

He came to me & said he will need me to check wif others whether wanna continue to give continue to e lifespan of that somebody.... sad to say... those that i approached... rejected me... as according to what i know... her existence has been an issue since stone age... and somehow this time... she didnt manage to survive e disaster that she created....

He felt bad to make such decision but he has no choice... he got support from e relevant authority... and jus now together wif him... we broke e news to her... to end her 'life' here....

i heard that she has a history of mental illness (i think its depression)... everyone who know about e decision are concern about her mental health... and i was worried all e time before we meet her...

She sat there quiet after she was told... motionless... head looking down on e floor... sad face but composed.... but when e news started to digest in her.... she weep.... then followed by crying... i tried to console her but to no avail.... it breaks my heart to see her cry.... however i have no choice... its part of what i do to earn a living... finally she accepted her fate... free me from e misery to see her cried in front of me and yet i can do nothing...

She left e room wif me and him experiencing super heavy heart... a strong touch of guilt & agony... and shortly after... he left too in a :( face... for that moment i thought i could contain my emo... but i was wrong... as another him walked in offerring me bread for tea break and another she offerring me coffee... i lost myself.... emo went out of control and i was weeping... how unprofessional...

guess i will have to put in extra effort to manage my emo... to be detached..........................

sAd mE...

mOn oFFicE NiTe

2010-01-18T04:34:00.000-08:00

8.38 21pm iN e OffiCE 18 Jan 2010 MoNdaY

Felt e need to write here now... to stablise my emotion... as e age catching up on me... i felt tat i lost my self control... getting less detached to things...

I dunno why... why do i still feel sad even though i've concluded tat i do not like it... guess its e sub conscious emo tat ve gotta e bonding built up... im in e stage of moaning...

Dictionary
Come to grief ~ to suffer disappointment, misfortune, or other trouble; fail.
Example ~ Their marriage came to grief after two years.

As sadness sinks in... i tried to push it away but struggling till i saw a fren came online msn... i prompted him hoping to seek dissolve e sadness in me... he is having his dinner... but i pleaded to continue jus so tat i could ask my qns... n i went "will u lend me ur shoulder to lean n cry if i need it one day?" n there goes e ans "sure"... which lightens up my heart... less sorrow...

Shall end here & head home... where warm n comfort belongs...

dArK mOnDaY

2009-09-28T07:04:00.000-07:00

28 Sep 09 mOn aT hOmE 10.08pm

Had a tough day today... its aint any where near PMS... but it jus felt dark... e only word tat comes to my mind when im in search of a description for my Monday...

Lots of things happened today... some caught me by surprised although sub-consciously i knew im expecting it... its jus a matter of time for it to take place...some re-surfaced to make me realised tat i ve yet to get over it... n tat i aint as strong + cool as i think i am... after all im still an ordinary gal who has feelings... some encounters tat exhausted + saddened me for jus trying to play e role of a fren... some existing circumstances which seem rather magnified negatively under such dark monday tat i reacted drastically n ended up affecting others...

Felt like crying but aint gonna do it... using every strength i ve to hold back myself as i am not ready to break down into tears... dun really know why but i guess i jus dun like e feeling of crying at tis moment... as it makes me feel helpless... defeated... weak... emotional...

So e only way out to tis mental release is to write here... virtual diary aka blogging... helps me take away e sorrow & misery in me without bothering another human being...

*Taking a deep & long breath*

eMo...

2009-07-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

15 Jul'09 Wed In office 5.34pm

Feeling lousy lately... emotional downside... dunno how to describe... seems like every thing is not rite... every single piece of it is upsetting me... i dunno why... feel a sense of sad.. unhappiness... n also disappointment... cant bring myself to face it... feels like running away... go catch a breath... i dunno whether its me who changed or is it e other side... i can take it no more... aaarrrrgghhhh!

i hate having my emo riding on a roller coaster... e feeling sucks n it makes me tired... unhappy n not focus... time will wash it away... as i type on.. i wish for it to take place fast...

A peaceful heart is simply wat i ask for... tats all...

WeePinG...

2009-07-06T01:00:00.000-07:00

6th Jul 2009 MoN 4.04pm In e office...

Can hold it back no more... tears roll down my eyes as i read on... cant control my emo... i felt sad n i felt bad... i keep asking myself... wat i witness is right or wrong... or there isnt any right or wrong... its all gotta do wif human relations...

many a times i asked... why ppl ve to behave like tat... am i getting more emotional as i age... as last time i wasnt like tat... in e past... i dun cry easily outside... im more detached... but now tat i look at myself again... i think otherwise... felt helpless... out of control... i dun like tat kinda feelings... sense of guilt... unjustice...

was weeping in e office moments ago... right in front of my LCD screen... felt so lousy.. out of control... emotional... weak... managed to pull out of e situation after chatting wif e Js'...

emo on a roller coaster...

fReEd mY MiNd...

2009-03-18T22:45:00.000-07:00

1.49pm 19th Mar 2009 tHuRs...

It's been quite a while since i last wrote in here... guess i was jus too lazy ;p i notice a habit of mine in writing here... tats to read thru my past posting 1st before starting a new one... if u ask me ~ i dunno why...

As for today... im overwhelmed wif tots... tots tat leave my mind wif no space for other stuffs & feeling helpless... it tired my brain out & making me loose concentration in work & other aspects of life... to be honest... these tots ve been burning my brain cells for days... & guess today is e day tat hit e maximum in me tat causes tis post...

I tried to deal wif it... from time to time... convince myself tat tis isnt exactly wat it is... or tat it will never happen e way my tots wanna it to be... or sometimes jus to do stuffs to occupy my mind inorder to forget it... however... moments ago... e idea of confessing & letting it out seems rather strong... almost like i had enough of tis mind torturing session & i wanna break free... but i did not & instead chose to write here to calm my mind, body & soul...

Sometimes tats jus life... comes wif many obstacles n yet after overcoming each & everyone of them... one harvest wif experience + knowledge...

ShUttLe RuN... ... ...

2008-07-23T22:35:00.000-07:00

1.38pm tHuRs 24 JuL08 iN oFFiCe

haha... jus back fm my lunch... here i am... rite at my work desk writing bLoG!!! despite e fact tat im rushing my payroll... keke ;p

me & SI were walking back fm our lunch jus now... though it was a long walk... but i enjoy it as it sort of release my stress n pose as a form of 'getaway' fm work ;) partially also cose e nearest available food is e canteen *also need to walk a distant* but e food is erm... hmm... not so tasty... keke ;p

as we were walking... it started to drizzle... n SI was saying "give us 10 mins"... however e rain got heavier n we were walking very fast... then we bump into our colleague... there i asked her to shelter SI as she is wearing heels while im wearing flats... n so i ended up running back while they slowly walk...

it was a great run... consider short distance by e time i started running... n becomes a performer as there were ppl sitting outside their shops looking at me... but nonetheless... i enjoyed it... keke ;p

must get back on my feet n do more exercise ya... cose i was breatheless after e run... hasnt been working out for a long time..

CiAo for now... got to work liao... PaYrOLL PaYRoLL pAyRoLL ;p

AnGkOr wAt mE... ...

2008-07-06T08:23:00.000-07:00

11.23pm iN e RooM SuNdaY 6 JuL 08

Lots of 'kan chu' right after im back fm my Cambodia trip tis afternoon... it all came when i was taking e SMRT fm Changi to hm alone... as JK had her fren fetching her while Lun took a cab back straight fm Changi... though its jus merely 4 days & 3 nites @ Angkor Wat... but to me it had been a long while... guess its due to e long travelling & climbing of those temples tat caught me off guard of e timings...

tis trip was an imprompt-to kinda arrangement... when i asked JK whether still interested in going Cambodia... her reaction was fast... she said yes via msn & shortly after... our flight to Angkor Wat is confirmed via email... & as we were preparing for out trip & busy getting on wif our lifes... Lun aka our BBA classmate also interested in this historical trip... then he also reacted fast wif a confirmation for a seat in e same flight as us...

though i've known JK for quite a while & Lun a little... it kinda makes me thinks how would e trip turns out to be if we all come together for travelling... concern is concern & now tat i've been thru e trip... all i wanna say is tat im glad i've travelled wif them... cose its been really fun... keke ;p

e funny thing is tat JK jio me for tis trip & i know nuts abt wat we r gonna do & see in Angkor Wat... n though i did a little research before e trip but im still blur abt e whole thingy... so when i was there wif JK & Lun climbing & viewing all those temples... i was at e same time digesting wats right in front of me & shocked by wat i was going thru... however... such feelings lasted not long tat soon i learn how to appreciate those historic buildings & enjoy e moment ;)

hmmm... tok abt moment... there r moments when i felt tat im really scared & there r also moments when i felt really good as i've conquered my fear & created a new limit for myself... & of cos not forgetting those moments where i felt tired + aching wif all those intensive walk-climbing... keke ;p e last category of moments tat i wanna list here is happiness + playful which occupied most of me in tis trip ;D

for now... my heart & soul r jus waiting for e picos to be ready as JK is kind enough to consolidate & burn into DVD for both me & Lun... oh ya... not forgetting to mention tat Lun is sweet enough to buy me & JK each a handmade bracelet fm e beautiful little gal outside one of those temples tat ve been 'bee-ing' ard him for minutes to buy her stuffs while we had our coconuts ;)

alrite... shall end here & tries to end e nite fast & rest is badly needed for tis moment ;p

LaSt DaY oF LaLa DaYs...

2008-05-30T11:44:00.000-07:00

31 MaY 08 SaT In e RooM 2.49am

Its early in e morning... just came back fm my drinking wif my long time kakis... its been a great nite as its been a while since i last drank wif them... shiok its e only word i can use to describe it ;)

long n tiring day i should say... morning woke up to be 2hrs later than expected... proceed to do marketing for e whole week of veggie n stuffs... then followed by meeting my fren *which is e bday gal* for lunch n shopping... lunch occupied most of e time n shopping ended up minority... *sob sob* i ended up buying nothing for myself n concluded tat i cant shop wif frens... tat i ve to shop alone in order to really appreaciate wats on e shelves install by e shops... keke ;p

following tat... i rush to meet my drinking kakis at Wala in HV... its been donkey years since we last drank there... e feelings of reunited there is really good... n goal for tonite which i've told them... tats to leave tat place feeling tipsy... which ultimately we all did accomplished ;D

now tat im home... n puke a little during my bath... its kinda statisfying to be honest although e feeling aint as good after e puke... keke ;p

guess its time to sleep as i ve another appt in 6hrs time... which is to walk e N Park :)

BoReD ~i~

2008-04-30T00:57:00.000-07:00

3.53pm In Office 30 Apr 08 Wed

time checked... its 3.53pm... im bored... no better words can describe my current feelings but "bOrEd"... keke ;p

tis feeling ve been wif me n ve been growing as e days go by... guess its cose things r different now... aint e same anymore... simply cose im on ORD mood... keke ;D to be honest... i dislike such behavior... cose i think its aint good... its bad :i however... i cant control myself... as i feel tat its jus aint worth my effort to strive for them...

hmm... recently i ve turning fm good to bad... from bad to worst... n going to reach devilish state... keke ;p

cose i ve been calling them names... from their name's initial to fb1 & fb2... sigh.. n now im losing myself :(

alrite.. recompose my state of mind now...
mE = MiNdLess + sOuLeSs + SeNseLeSs + SiAnZiEr + TiRedNess + ... ... ...
*hmm... wonder anymore to add onz...*

recently been really tired... due to e added responsibilities... where there r times feel like collapsing... but... hmm.. didnt ya... still here :s

think i better stop here... cose mind is not focusing now.. mind is drifting away liao.. kaka ;p

tGiF... ZzzzZzz

2008-04-10T23:35:00.000-07:00

11 Apr'08 iN oFFicE 2.36pm fRi

Tired... cose only surviving on 4hrs or lesser amt of sleep... brain can hardly function despite injecting high dosage of caffeine tis morn... n so i ended up buying yang sheng chai after lunch... as tats a powerful drink which can boost up my energy... keke ;p

Many a times i tell myself... u must be professional... u must still hold up to ur job till e very last sec... n i've always done tat for all my previous employment... however... tis time rd... things r slightly different... guess its cose sub-consciously i dun care... n i dun wanna care... haha 8:

Got to stop here... cose wan wan is back.. got to go over to support liao :i

A SeNsE oF ReLieF

2008-04-03T00:30:00.000-07:00

03 Apr 08 Thurs In e Office @ CEO section 3.28pm

Instant feeling of relief... as if like a big rock empty fm my heart... i dunno why...

Jus had a tok wif my boss... dun like e feeling though... cose behaving emotional in front of her... makes me feel weak... i dun like it...

Needed tat chat... cose was trying to seek her approval on certain things... but then conditions were laid by her for me to fulfill before she agrees to it... i dislike it... but then it leaves me wif no choice but to abide...

tis is e 1st time we had a open... hmm... or rather a semi-open chat abt a common person... she said it may not be too late to turn ard e situation... however... i wish to deal wif her no more... cose i had enough... n it means enough...

now tat i think abt e whole session... i dun really enjoy but somehow it did make me feel so much better... i dunno why... guess i jus need to really spend more time understanding myself... so as to know wat really went gaga at a certain time...

recently overloaded wif too many 'stuffs' n its somehow causing me to sink as e time goes by... to e stage of drowning... but im letting it be for a moment... as i need to summon up my strength... willpower to get myself out of e situation... i believe i can.. n i know i jus need time...

*wonder* sometimes... how i wish very much tat i ve a shoulder to lean on... or a person dear to me to hold an umbrella sheltering me over all tats happening ;)

~back to work~

TotS FiLL mE uP

2007-06-11T08:22:00.000-07:00

11 June 07 iN e RooM 11.23pm

Jus finished watching e 1st 3 episodes of "Lovers in Paris"... e Korean series tat ve been quite popular last yr... i think...

sis bought i early tis yr & lend it to me & mama to watch since donkey months again... but due to busy schedule... havent been able to watch till tonite... jus had my term 2 exams done last thurs... was a dreadful wan... & didnt wanna tok abt it anymore... jus deep down in me hoping tat i can score a pass...

dunno why... after watching tat Korean series... seems to be filled wif emotions... & minds' filled wif tots... tots tats beyond wat i can explain... *trying hard to read my own mind*

then all i know & wanna do is to write in here... to write away how i feel & think... to free my heart & mind... guess tis is a sense of releasing myself... if i were to be outside rite now... i do seek another form of release... & tats to take a long walk... or to take a bus... wif music blasting over my ears...

n tats jus simply how i feel now.........

mY LiKe .........

2007-03-27T08:42:00.000-07:00

11.43pm tUe NitE 27 mAr 07

lying on my bed as i write...

today... i realise something... tat is to notice 'my like'... sounds funny... but its been there since day one... yet i didnt notice its existence...

it was late afternoon... before my training starts... due to enquiries arises fm my colleagues, i had to dig out some files to check... as i flipped thru 1 of e files... i suddenly came to realise tat its so far yet so near... wat u wish for was so very rite in front of u tat u were blinded by e distance as u look far away in search of it...

its been there all tis while... since e day i joined e Co... always been there... until recently... or rather few more days to go before it bides me goodbye... n it shall be gone forever... simply cose i know very well tat chances of reunion will be slim... n besides... its fated tat wif its existence all tis while... i didnt take notice of it till now... tis very afternoon then only it came to light...

too late... its jus too late...

*meant to be will be... not meant to be will never be*

mY 1St tiMe ExPosUrE

2007-03-22T09:58:00.000-07:00

12.58am fRi mOrn 23 mAr 07

Jus finished checking some of my emails... saw tis video clip... super cute... made fm thai... abt a son who asked his papa fr e car... rite after driving out... it changed e who ride fm stock to super mock style... n guess wat... his papa was in his ride when he drove out... giving e son e shock expression... keke ;p

hmm... alrite... shall start now on my story fr today... its nothing :( but ;D

recently been working on a project @ wk... its abt implementing a system called eLeave... which allows all HQ & site staff to apply leaves online... purpose is to advance e Co to e next stage... paperless world...

system was bought off e shelf... n so me & my colleagues had to attend e course conducted by e software co... in which we had to do our own setup & customisation later... then my boss decided to put me incharge of e whole project... which includes synchronizing e data fm e old system, input additional data, writing documentations for eLeave training, organising training & not forgetting doing initial setup + customisation...

gee... it was a whole lot of wk involved... wif majority of my time spent on synchronizing e data fm e old system & inputting e additional data tats oncoming... all these drag on till 1st wk of mar... where i finally finished & were ready to roll out e eLeave... had a discussion wif boss & it was settled tat she will conduct e training to all staffs while i assist her at e side... but will be in small groups each time... consecutively for 2 wks...

to-date... had been thru 1 training wif her... there was another one but i wasnt able to sit in as i was away for my exam... n yday... was e 3rd training... supposed to be e same as e 1st one... but boss took urgent half day leave... so leaving me to conduct e training on my own... was kinda nervous... as i aint e sort tat will blah well in front of a crowd... especially when e focus is on me & tat i never conducted any training before... i will :s

4.30pm reached... tots of wanting to cancel e training linger in my mind... but then i still drag myself to e boardroom to get everything ready... slowly one after e other... a total of 10 colleagues came to attend e training... i 'thRoW' away my nervous... my tots of cancelling e training... & conducted e training... by 530pm.. it was all done wif... & there goes my 1st time... keke ;)

actually... training is e field tat i always wanna explore since day 1 when i join HR... but wasnt given a chance till yday... hope tis will open me to e whole new world of trainings exposure ;D

bEfOre eXaM - mE :s

2007-03-13T08:56:00.000-07:00

11.58pm tUe 13 mar 07 in my room

its been ages since i last clock a blog here... cose i've been busy... wif different things @ different point in my life......

oct'06... went Shanghai... was a great trip... dec'06... did nothing much except to meet up frens & celebrate xmas... jan'07 onwards... started my part time degree... Bachelor in Business Admin...

never like those courses i took before... tis is rather complex n tough... its a combination of assignments & exam... n e assignments' a killer... as language is 1 of my weakness... so writing essays is a nO nO for me :s but so far i had done 2 mini n 2 major assignments n now its my examsssss..........

1st paper is less than 24 hrs away... n yet i hard digest any knowledge abt 'intro to management'... gee... tis time is red alert!!!

studies have never been easy... but as one gets older... nurture in thinking... it makes studies even more difficult... guess its due to all e consequences tat's attached to it when we think abt not completing e course...

its jus 1st term... n im struggling... cant imagine for e rest of e terms tats coming my way... hesitation is lingering in my mind as im not sure if i can make it for tis very 1st term.........

fiNaLlY DoNe & GoNe

2006-09-14T06:29:00.000-07:00

9.26pm thUrs 14th SeP 06

it happens quite sometime back... only to realise it recently... struggle thru abit... but yday... or rather early tis mornz... i finally summon up myself to do it... & there's no turning back :s

it is a matter tat i've been pondering over for a period of time... as i dint know wat to do wif it... n so i choose to drag on for awhile... guess i was sub consciously waiting for it to happen by itself... but it didnt... n due to past experience, i told myself tat i should do something abt it... n so i did... gather all my tots... to influence my mind *as mind is e most powerful asset a human possess* & out tat email was sent!

*sigh* n there goes my matter... all solved wif jus e click of e mouse... everything GoNe!!! as im not hoping for a reply... simply cose i olreadi know e ans rite fm e start............

uPsEt :'(

2006-09-11T19:27:00.000-07:00

9.57am tUe 12th Sep 06 *in e office*

Had a bad start off tis morning… quarreled wif papa… e same old issues… although I know he cares for me… but I ve told him countless time not to remind me to sleep whenever I stay up at nite… as his concern will always end up to be my burden :’(

Things haven’t been kinda smooth lately for me… stress has been building up @ work… my colleague is leaving n partial of her wk is me handling it now… though e new gal is here… but she is still not familiarize wif e work yet… n due to a lot of urgent things coming along… so I had to attend to it first… besides tat… I had my own work to rush as I ve ppl chasing down my neck for leave balance & not forgetting my immediate boss… which on & off she will give me adhoc task to do which I ve to act on it almost instantaneously :s

To rub things in further… recently had conflicts wif frens… aint sure wats really going on… though I roughly know where it went wrong… guess we r all on our moody moments where we can easily erupt like an active volcano & tats why ended up wif unhappiness…

Angish… upset… annoy… frustrated… stressed up… sad… heart ache… feeling of wanting to pouring cats & dogs *tears*… is wat made up of me for now………..

iT's BeeN A LonG tiMe PaRt II

2006-09-04T07:35:00.000-07:00

10.30pm MoN NitE 4th SeP 06

hmm... 2 postings in a day... *thinking*

anyway... here i am to post e picos for e sAt NitE... jus 2 picos as e rest r wif Ivy... in which dunno when will i get it *sigh* :s

iT's BeeN A LonG tiMe

2006-09-03T11:06:00.000-07:00

2.01am MoN wEE MorN 4th SeP 06

tis timing... supposed to date Zhou Gong but here i am writing in eBlogger... had a great sat nite... n so i decided tat i wanna put in down in words...

started off wif sat noon... bk fm wk ard 4pm... had a chat wif mama & rested for a while before i prepared myself to meet Yi & e rest of e gang... it was an outing to celebrate Yi's bday... n coincidently she shares e same birthdate as my sis... but tats where i ve to burn my pocket a little extra on tis day of every yr ;p

our gang consists of 7 gals & 2 guys... in which we r all fm e same secondary sch... used to be close but somehow drift apart as e years go by... guess its e committment tat we each have in our own plate... n so it ended up only Yi, Ivy, Joyceln & me for tat sat nite...

we had Japanese Western food for dinner... i ordered Japanese Style Spaghetti & it was nice... but dunno why... i ended up wif gastric pain for e rest of e nite :s we proceed on to Bakerz Inn @ Millemium Walk for coffee in which is Yi's favourite & cannot-do-without drink... keke

Yi planned e nite to be a clubbing nite & so we were discussing where to club when Joyceln mentioned tat Coach *Joyceln & my swimming coach & Ivy knows him too* always go clubbing... n so we contaced him... initially wanting to tease him by smsing him saying tat Ivy is her secret admirer... asking him out to party together... but only to find out tat he did ve Ivy's new mobile no ;p

nonetheless... he still met us up for clubbing... except tat Joyceln went home 1st as she's aint into clubbing... so Coach picked us up from Millemium Walk & headed to The Loof @ Beach Road... situated on e 3rd floor wif roof top kinda concept & new age music... was a nice place to chill out... Coach met up wif his frens there n 3 of us were there enjoying e atmosphere... we had a drink & a few photo takings *will put up in my next posting* before we headed down to Bar None @ Marriott Hotel... danced till nearly 3am then we proceed to Newton for supper before we headed home...

e whole nite was fun as Coach was entertaining we gals wif his jokes & his very PoWdeRfuL analysis skills... n was telling Yi tat its been ages since i last club & last makeup... haha... as being a very LazY GaL... i hardly put on makeup... in fact e last time i recall putting on makeup is months ago when i attended my fren's wedding... hmm... maybe i should be more hardworking & start putting on makeups now... *wonder* keke ;p

LaSt fEw DaYz oF AuG

2006-08-29T06:56:00.000-07:00

9.52pm 29th AuG'06 tUeS

Jus met up my excolleagues for dinner... was an enjoyable catch-up... its been mths since i last saw them... we arranged to go for sushi @ tiong bahru... supposedly Jennie, Peggy, William & me... but due to wk, William was unable to make it... n so it was a ladies' nite out ;D

we had ramen for dinner & proceed to Bangawan Solo for a drink before we headed home... it was a nite of gossips... simple yet enjoyable :)

mind kinda cloudy now... lots of tots running thru my mind... work... Shanghai trip... Jing San Shun stories *cose running in & out of rm watching it @ channel U now*... & etc...

been depriving of sleep lately... cose trying to sleep early for e past few days... but always ended up dating zhou gong ard 2+ in e morning :s

counting down my days for Shanghai trip... 5 more wks to go... so near yet so far... been trying to save every penny now for tis trip... 12 days out of SG & into a foreign country which is approaching winter... cant wait for it to happen ;D it will be me & Pepe only... covering Shanghai, Huangshan, Hangzhou & Qingdao... accommodation for both Shanghai & Qingdao r taken care of... cHiNa here we come... keke ;p

hmm... again today i tell myself.. i must sleep early today... didnt bring back wk tis rd... so i guess i will succeed ;p time check 10.46pm... half way thru Jing San Shun on Channel U + at e same time chatting wif a few frens on msn + writing on here now... alrite.. shall end here for today... signing off......

a DaY iN AuGuSt'06

2006-08-15T22:55:00.000-07:00

1.51pm 16th AuG'06 WeD

Jus back fm my lunch... guess today is a break thru... tat im writing at this hr... best word to describe my feelings now... uNbEaRabLe :s

work has been piling up since dinosaur days... but i've been fighting e battle since then... trying to clear as much as i can... still its getting nowhere... everyday i attend to enquiries fm colleagues, my boss & even enquiries meant for my colleague & tat i've to cover fr her too... its been like tat since day 1 when i joined tis Co... sometimes i do wish she can share portion of her pay wif me... as im covering her work every now n then :s

its a long story... too long to be put into words here... recently been to a Fortune Teller n she said tat i will leave my current job probably next yr due to either no bonus or no increment... hmm... i wonder...

hope e rest of my day will brighten up like a sun flower after i end my grumbles in here......

.......................... FeeLinGs......

2006-08-02T08:33:00.000-07:00

11.30pm 2nd AuG'06 WeD

*taking a deep breath* guess im early today... to write in here... actually been wanting to write since last nite after watching e movie "LaKehSe"...

yday met up Pepe, Ah huang, Joyceln, Meow & Pauline to watch e movie "LaKehSe"... & discover 1 coincident thing is tat we r all singles... going for a very romantic show ;) e movie was great... e story revolves ard Keanu & Sandra, abt hw they r fated to meet in e most unusual way... so near yet so far kinda manner... & i've always like Keanu & Sandra... but somehow i was disappointed when i saw them in e 1st sense... cose both seem to ve aged quite alot... they turn ugly... ops! :x

after watching e movie... sort of got me thinks alot... tat whether such story really does exist in real life... whether e message brought across by e story is real *i read e msg as... if one waits patiently enough, one will ultimately find his or her love* then again e tots led to me thinking abt my luff... SiGh... is e only word i can adopt for this moment...

*dunno hw to con't* hmm............ shall call it a sheet then...

CoN't oF A yEAr OldeR

2006-07-26T09:03:00.000-07:00

12 midnite Thurs 27th Jul'06

its been a tired day @ work... *determined* i told myself tat i will go to bed early today... definitely aint gonna clock 2am tonite :*

main reason for being in here today... simply cose i couldnt upload e picos i had for e previous chapter in tis blog... *sigh* n so here i am trying to upload my picos under another chapter today :s

here it goes......

*sweat* tried several times... managed to get up 2 picos out of 3... i couldnt get e pico of me wif e little piece of chocolate cake which i took during my lunch celebration wif my colleagues :( as for e lady above... she's Juanna... e lady who gave me flowers on my bday... awww... so sweet of her!!! ;D

alrite... time to book out... 1233am... signing off.......

A YeaR OldEr

2006-07-25T09:54:00.000-07:00

12.52am Wed 26th Jul 06

hmm... dunno why... but i jus like starting off every chapter of my life in here wif time/day/date... *wonder*

guess its no more today tat im writing abt my birthday... its 55 mins into being called yday... n so it shall be...

25th July... where i was bornt 27 years ago... seem rather long as i've passed slightly more than a quarter of my life...

as usual... i went to work in e morning cose i dun really ve e practise to take leave during my bday... n when i reached office... i was surprised by a bouquet of flowers sitting on my desk... it was from my colleague Juanna... we share e same bday n same chinese zodiac too... fated i must say... for us to meet... n very sweet of her to buy me those flowers all by herself w/o other colleagues chipping in... *melt* e flowers brightens up my day... even though i had a busy day @ work... but still i would smile when i look @ those flowers *as i like flowers*

then in e afternoon... our Manager bought us lunch to celebrate our bday... it was a great lunch... we had thai food in e cafe located in e little corner of Amara Hotel... services there was gd too! knowing it was both Juanna n my bday... e cafe gave each of us a complimentary piece of chocolate cake lit wif candle... n i must say... its was a very very very delicous chocolate cake ;p~~

having stomach fully stored wif food... we headed bk to wk... times flies as usual... n in jus a blink... its was time to meet Pepe... she had offered to celebrate bday for me *very sweet of her* n we had settled for lemon grass restaurant as she has 30% disc... then i was delighted when i got to know tat Ah huang was joining us too ;D

sometimes life is jus contradicting... as i always like receiving flowers... but when really given... i feel shy to hold it in public :s i held onto e bouquet of flowers waiting @ e traffic junction near Amara Hotel for Pepe n Ah huang to come... n i felt kinda paisey as passer-by kept looking @ me + flowers... luckily they arrrived fast enough to ease my awkwardness ;p

we headed down to Orchard for our dinner n had a very fulfilling meal @ lemon grass... then we proceed to walk ard e shops in Hereen... n so coincidently we bump into Josiah... our ADI... guess e world is jus ' big... keke ;p

following tat we walked abit more where Ah huang bought her nephew a pair of sandals... very cute ya cose miniature... then we headed home separately n called it a day...

hmm... dunno whether its age catching up or i've grown into another stage of maturity... somehow this year... i never look forward to my bday... unlike previous years... which i would always plan my schedule full jus solely for e month of July to celebrate my bday......

Q.O.W.D. PicOs

2006-07-16T11:43:00.000-07:00

2.40am Monday 17th Jul 2006

hmm... guess i didnt manage to get e diving picos uploaded e last rd... nonetheless... will try again this time round... hope it works ya... enjoy!!!

QuALified oPeN wAter DivEr ;D

2006-07-10T11:10:00.000-07:00

2.08am tUes mOrN 11th JuL'06

Sitting in my room... jus finished viewing all e picos sent by WJ & also replied e mass email to my diving group of frens...

its been a challenging weekend... cose i conquer another stage of my life... tats to drop all fear & worries n gain my Open Water Diving License ;D always wanna do it but never tot i really can achieve... very tough initially though...

e journey starts all e way from fri evening itself... been running ard like hot ants e whole day @ work... supposed to meet Pepe *btw... forgotten to include Pepe in my dive kaki list...guess cose she appears too often in my different activities tat i sort of taken her as part of e list w/o mentioning* rite after wk ard 615pm... but last min was held bk by my Finance Manager to discuss some stuffs... n it dragged all e way to 645pm... in which Pepe olreadi finished her dinner :s n so i proceed to buy bread for dinner... little did i realise tat 1 of e tuna bread had olreadi half way discomposing due to sour taste... *fainting*

following tat... we ended up e last batch to report to Sunny Cove... Ah huang, Ebby, Sally & Adrian were olreadi there waiting *paisey* then we met up WJ & Thomas... on e spot they intro 3 lovely ladies *Ai Hui, Hui Tze & Shoko* & our Asst Diving Instructor *Jo* to us... AH & HT were joining us to Puala Tinggi for work related purposes... n as for Shoko... she's from Japan... who came to SG for wk... ended up wif some extra time which she used it to take diving course... n tats where Thomas arranged her to join our group...

after getting all e dive equipments & our baggies into e mini bus... we started our journey towards Paula Tinggi... it was a 4 hrs ride to a jetty in Malaysia & an hr mini ferry ride to PT... unlike e rest... throughout e whole journey i didnt sleep... guess cose im e sort tat will wan to eye witness every single moments when im out on a trip... jus like a video capturing every memorable scene ;)

we had a stopover for tiolet & snack break @ e 7-Eleven near Jusco shopping centre... then we con't our journey to e jetty in which we waited a few hrs for e mini ferry... reason being tat its low tide... so e mini ferry couldnt move near e jetty... but when e mini ferry finally arrived... we all was so delighted as majority of us r dead tired & had enough feeding to e mosi mosi @ e jetty :s

it was a cloudy nite... wave was big n caused our mini ferry ride to be very "sPeciAL"... almost made me felt like im riding a grade 10 roller coaster... unlike e rest... i chose to sit outside so tat i can view e scenery... though it was dark... but it was very windy... very shiok & also abit scary...

finally we made it to e island, PT... n we had our supper *sandwiches & beehoon* then proceed to sleep... but by then it was olreadi 5+am... thus WJ allows us to do our pool session only @9am e following morning *Sat 8 JuL*... rooms were allocated according to diving buddy n so i shared room wif Ebby... n 1 cute thing is tat our room was connected to Sally & Adrian's room ;)

waking up wif little sleep following morning... all of us went to e dining hall for our breakfast...as we r e only group there for e weekend... so e food was prepared according to our preference... thus we ordered bbq food for our dinner... keke ;p

after breakfast & changing... we proceed to pool session... where we r 1st exposed to e dive equipments... not forgetting e diving suit... which i found mine a little small... *WJ see me too up liao* nonetheless... still managed to squeeze in though ;p we were taught how to dismantle & assemble e oxygen tank wif BCD... also we learnt how to swim w/o mask, how to clear mask when its filled wif little or full water, how to retreive our regulator, how to wear weight belt & how to wear BCD all in e water... was a tiring training which lasted till afternoon then we proceed to lunch...

by then weather was starting to havoc... cloudy sky wif big waves & drizzling rain... but WJ said it was still alrite to dive after discussion wif Jo... n so we gear ourselves up after lunch n proceed to PT beach... cose WJ wanna us to do our 1st & 2nd dive fm shore... always ve e perception tat it would be so much safer n easier to dive fm shore... but after experiencing it... i was totally wrong manz... it was horrible as e wave is always pushing me bk to shore n wif e dive equipment *abt 15kg* on my back... i felt helpless when i fell to e sandy floor... lucky for me... Ebby was a determined gal & best buddy tat she helped me up n we tried a 2nd time whereby this time succeeded... we made it to e sea where WJ directed us to e dive spot together wif Jo...

though Jo partnered Shoko as diving buddy... but most of e time... Jo was away fm her taking care of e rest of us & running some errand for WJ simply cose he's ADI... keke ;p Jo usually will tied e rope at e dive spots for us & also first to go down as he will assist in taking care of those who went down... WJ brought us down individually... it was a scary experience... as i felt pressure in ear in which i had to clear while moving down... n not to mention abt e tot of having e regulator as my only air source... aaaarrrrrgggghhhh :s

but still... managed to conquer my fear n made it for e 1st dive wif e help of WJ... then i experienced my first motion sickness in which i vomitted in e SeA :s was up on e surface floating in my inflated BCD aft 1st dive, waiting for e rest... e wave made me puked! it was gross... but i left wif no choice... lucky thing is tat i wasnt alone... as i had Ah Huang & Ebby as my puking kakis... keke ;p

left wif little time & air... WJ suggested we made another dive to clock 2 dives before we called it a day... n so we did before we swam towards e shore... we didnt see much in this 2 dives as e water wasnt clear due to e weather :(

con't on was dinner & theory exam...in btw tat Ai Hui, Hui Tze, Pepe, Ah Huang & me went to wanna free e baby turtles but due to heavy rain... e mission was aborted *sigh*

tat nite we slept ard 11+pm...WJ had planned our 3rd & 4th dive to start @ 8am... n so we had to ve our breakfast before tat... after experiencing e puking earlier on.. i decided to ve light breakfast as a preventive measure... but still it didnt work... cose i ended up feeding e fishes again :s

our 3rd & 4th dives were done rite @ e bk of PT from e mini ferry... we did gaint leap n also back roll... me n Pepe concluded tat back roll is easier for us... as sea water wont sip into our mask... weather was good then n we managed to see sea cucumber n some mini fishes when we reached e bottom... had a few photos taken... n finally we completed our open water diving course!!! hooray!!! keke ;p

1st & 2nd dives @ 4.5m while 3rd & 4th dives @ 8.3m... sAt nite i was firmed abt my decision never to dive again after getting e license... but now tat im here writing... i kinda missed e whole thingy... e tot of going for another dive keeps appearing in my mind... keke... but will only there to do so if im accompanied by skilful divers like WJ & Jo.... as their presence given me alot of assurance tat its safe to dive... of course i do wanna dive wif my diving kakis too *Ebby, Pepe, Ah Huang, Shoko, Sally & Adrian* ;D

hmm... a little abt Ai Hui & Hui Tze... athough they didnt join us for diving... they had their adventure too by going trekking to e all time natural water fall in PT... n also did abit of snorkeling ;D

we departed from PT ard 1+pm *SunDaY* n it was rainning heavily during our mini ferry ride... which contributed to another fun experienced for me... then all in all we reached Sunny Cove ard 7+pm n tats where we parted...

*tired* here's some picos to share... Enjoy!

TiREd + WoRrY + eXcitEd = mE

2006-07-06T10:31:00.000-07:00

1.32am fRiDaY morning 7th JuL'06

its been a tiring day @ work... cos my colleague went on course & she will only be back next tue :( having a new Manager ard isnt as gd as i tot... cos apart from attending to my daily chores, i ve to assist her in her chores too & nt forgetting abt my colleague's chores too :s

was telling my e other colleague tat i target to leave office on e dot but ended up attending an interview n so i left office ard 7+pm... sometimes i think... life isnt jus abt working... we spend lots of time on work tat we kinda lost ourselves... *wonder*

hmm... a mixture of feelings tat im encountering now *kindly refer to e title*.... diving due this wkend... departuring later this evening... supposed to be happy & excited... but then here i am... at e same time feeling a little worry... been thinking thru... guess wat others always say r true... n tats as one grows older... one tends to be not so daring... cose im jus an example... burdened by too much concerns...

as im not very good @ swimming even though i did improve alot after attending lessons... but still i ve little water confidence... n e tot of being in sea wif all e sea animals... kinda worries me a little... n to rub things in... i havent gotten e time to read up my diving materials... so i dun really know e fundamental skills... *got to check wif my frens later tonite ya* :s

hmm... lost of tots... didnt know how to con't fm here... hmm... but i did finish packing my bag... n tat i did go on search engines to source out some pics of sea animals tat r dangerous enough for me to avoid... hopefully things will be jus fine... only then i will go for my advance... keke ;p

Diving Group: Adrian & Sally, Ebby, Lifen & mE
Puala Tinggi..... here we come ;D

BrAziL ......................

2006-07-01T15:02:00.000-07:00

6.02am Sunday early morning 2nd July 06

Early sunday morning... rare for me to be awake at this timing... but i did not sleep... reason being tat i watched World Cup... Brazil vs France @ 3am... it was a disappointing match... Brazil lost to France :'(

I started to appreciate soccer since last WC @ Yr2002... back then it was introduced to me thru my grp of ex-colleagues... they educated me e different teams n also how to place betting @ Singapore Pool... keke... which from then onwards... i was a fan of WC... n also it was e time where i got to know abt Brazil team... attracted by their outstanding performance in WC 2002... only to know later tat they r one of e strong teams ard...

but then... things seem to ve changed this time rd for Brazil... they dun perform as good as last WC... Ronaldo ve put on quite an amt of weight... n their coach ve left them for Portugal...

since e starting of WC 2006... i've been trying to catch their matches but it all didnt happen till tonite... cose of their match timing... n tonite... e same as before... their match starts @ 3am... but i've my sis n bro-in-law to watch wif me... we watched at a cafe... throughout e match... excitement level for my heart shoot from 0 to 100... very competitive n tough... but cant deny is tat France was good... tat 1-0 was really a good shot... nothing much to say abt Brazil except tat disappointment...

hope they will do something abt it n earn themselves a status in e next WC... *sigh*

A wEEk'S tALe

2006-06-03T13:37:00.000-07:00

4.37am Sunday wEE morning 4th June 06

Erm... *thinking* i shall summarize my whole week's activities in this little corner of my blog :)

Hmm... had a little break during this whole wk... help mama on various hsehold chores cose she injured her feety... n so i vacuum & mop e floor... went wet market & NTUC for marketing... was fun but tiring though... always had e perception tat those aunties bringing e red basket *wif wheels attached* to & fro wet market is an effortless task... but after jus past friday which i did exactly wat those aunties do... i think otherwise :s cose after i filled e basket to 3/4 full... i felt like im pushing a "RoCk" ard... so i cant imagine if its fully packed wif food...

Apart from all tat... i also watched "Jing San Shun" aGaIn... keke... cant help it ;p i really like this particular Korean series alot... e cute love story... e way JSS narrates abt her luff life... e theme song + backgrd music on every scene... e cute & charming main actor wif unqiue character & a fashion police in e series too... always dressed up in every scene :p~~

Indulgence fr e wk: i gotten myself e soundtrack of "Jing San Shun" .... yipee ;D

Also... i've met up aili, zz, meow, xiao gao, nelly, xiao bai, angeline & pepe fr a drink on fri nite... @ Blooie in Science Pk II... nice place for a drink except fr e services... but it was nice overall as its been a while since i last see all of them *except Pepe*

Guess tats all abt my week's tale... think next wk will be a busier wk for me... wif work & trekking on Sat... & i wanna watch "The Omen" ;D

Omen... oMeN.... Omen... oMen... keke ;p

SimPLe sAtUrDaY

2006-05-20T12:45:00.000-07:00

3.45am Sunday morning 21st May 06

Indulgence: lying on bed & writing my blog ;p

inspiration came... telling myself to kick e bad habits... should start writing in here even when im happy or neutral *although im one who likes to store my happy memories only in my mind*... n so im here writing...

slept ard 5 on Sat morning after putting down e phone wif Pepe... initially wanna so much to go queue up for e 48% disc for iPod nano @ Wheelock Place *got inside news only @ 2+am*... but didnt ve e energy when i ended my call @ 5am... n besides, Pepe didnt wanna go too.. so no kaki :(

slept till 1+pm & got woken up by my niece & nephew :( Brian 5, Grace 3 & Jayne 1, all came to my hse for lunch... baby Jayne always cry when she sees xiao gu *me* n ah ma.... but today miracle strikes n i suffer after tat... she stop crying when i carries her n then my bro made me carries baby Jayne all day... hands r trembling after they left :s

with my trembling hands, i finished my dinner & headed off to meet Joyceln n Pepe for movie *Davinci Code* 2hrs odd story... got me blur wif all e characters n history... but nonetheless, still a good movie... following tat was a coffee session @ Coffee Club Express... it was enjoying wif ice passion tea, muddy mud pie, salad, chicken pie & most of all... gals chat ;D we ended e session ard 11+pm knowing tat we had to wake up @ 545am e next day for our Big Walk...

eh... er... but still now im writing in here n time check 4.18am... guess i should end here n go date zhou gong ;p

eMotiOnaL BabY

2006-05-18T11:23:00.000-07:00

19th May 2006 Friday wEE morning 2.21am

Jus finished my Korean Series Marathon... title "Jing San Shun"... e story revolves ard a 30 yr old gal... how she felt out of love n again fall in love when she nearly gave up on all e guys in e world... cute story wif fantastic theme song... i like almost all e music played in the series during different scenes... n so i decided to go hunt fr e album ;)

but after watching e KSM... dunno why but mind fills wif tots... tots abt my work... my love life... my everything... e idea came... tat work & love r rather similar... both can make u happy & sad at times... n for now, these 2 aint shining in my life...

been moving ard profession... trying to find where i really belong... but still i haven't really settled down in my career... n im starting to get tired... as for e other 'star' tats aint shining in my life... guess its me to blame as i've take things for granted... take too long to react n when its gone.. then only did i realise e pitched... but now i tell myself... tat in comparison... work will be a more favorable 'star' to focus on... as it will not get my heart to experience a roller coaster rite...

*paused* suddenly lost of words... dunno wat to continue typing... *wonder* ... writing in here seems rather similar to me writing in my diary... im not a regular for my diary... but only writes when im emotional or sad... cose i feel better after writing out my tots.. guess its a way of releasing myself... somehow im doing e same thing here rite now in Blogger... unintentional... n can help it...

time checked... 2.56am... guess i should call it a sheet for this little blog for today... may tomorrow be a better day................

LouSy wOrK dAy

2006-04-27T08:57:00.000-07:00

11.56pm Thursday nite 27 April 06

Things havent been too smooth lately... dunno why...

have been thinking alot recently... mainly cose of 2 deaths tat i came across rite before e wk started... my uncle's daughter passed away due to unknown disease... symptoms r jus heart pains & it happened on sat nite which followed by news of her "gone" on sunday early morning... sad... although aint close to her but i did get to see met her during this yr's CNY... guess its all fated to see her last time.. her papa brought her n her younger bro over to my hse... she was all grown up for her age of 8 yr old... tall & strong bones... but now its all gone...

following tat was Sally's bro... got e news early monday morning thru a common fren when i reached office... bike accident where he flew off his 400cc bike after a toyota guy hit him from behind.. merely 21 yr of age.. was too early to end his life.. shocking & speechless... although i hardly knows him but somehow i do feel sad... Sally was away wif Adrian holiday in BKK but rush back rite after they were informed of e news... being very closed to Sally... good fren aka buddy during poly days till now... i felt i needed to be there for her... after calling up a few close frens... we arranged to head down to her place on tat very nite & stay till midnite before we headed hm as we all had to wk...

all these made me think so much... life is so fragile... it makes me think how things can suddenly happen n one will be gone before u can show appreciation... cherish e person... share ur heart felt tots wif e person... *wonder*

n so e days go went by wif all these feelings lingering ard... to rub things in... i accidentally spill coffee onto office carpet which my bRo *aka my colleague whom sits beside me* helps me cleaned up... but still there is this big brownish stain there... so obvious... *sigh* & following tat i flare up wif 1 of my colleagues... its been a real busy n stressful day today... different colleagues came to me to assist them in their wk... n most of their tasks r due for tomorrow... n so i had to rush then came 1 guy... sickening is e only word i can associate him to... his attitude was bad, likes to order ppl ard, brag alot, thinks he's a loveable boy... *puke* we had some conflicts wif work... i tried to take it easy e last time... but this morning... i felt i could endure his nonsense no more... n tat i ended up raising my voice against him *which will never match his loud irritating voice* n he back off...

sometimes... things jus happens so unpleasantly tat i jus lose my cool... n all drained up after killing all my cells due to angishness... n i hate tat manz :(

Con't Of Picnic

2006-04-09T09:48:00.000-07:00

12.58am... Monday morning... here i am to post e pics of e last pinic... actually ve yet to figure out to do it... nonetheless... will jus trial & error... hopefully it will works...

SeNtosA PiCniC

2006-02-11T09:57:00.000-08:00

11th Feb 06...it was a last min outing organised by Liyuan... picnic @ Sentosa... i was e 1st to arrive @ Habour Front... n so i went window shopping... tried a dress but then it was slightly out of my budget n so i ended up not buying...

after spending half e time waiting for everybody to reach... we took e shuttle bus into Sentosa & alight @ Siloso Beach... Weather's good & we walked a distance before we settled for a shady spot... 1st time in my life... i sat on a big mat... which is enough to accomodate ard 15 people inclusive of their bags... i was truely amazed by it... nonetheless... we started to dig in e japanese food prepared by Liyuan... *delicious*

oh ya... btw... e group consists of me... Liyuan... Mansur... Kenny & Ivy... though its jus e few of us... but its enough to make e whole outing a wonderful one! ;D

reason being for this last min outing is tat Liyuan will be posted to Japan to work for ard a year or more... so we meet up to sort of to catch up wif him before he leaves for Japan :(

after e food... Liyuan... Kenny... Ivy & me went ard Siloso Beach to take photos while Mansur take a rest... *pictures will be posted in my next blog cose waiting for Liyuan to burn me e pics into a CD* then evening came & we proceed to Harbour Front to ve our dinner while Ivy went back to get her Laptop to download all e pics for viewing... upon finishing viewing all e pics... we went back...

lucky for me as i hitched a ride fm me & ivy's common fren... n tats was how e nite ends :)

mY 1st TimE...

2006-02-08T18:18:00.000-08:00

Time check 10.23am... its a Thursday morning...kinda bored *although busy wif work* ...happens to read an email sent to me by 1 of my frens ages ago... its abt a funny blog posted by a gal going for interview... n after which i decided to start my very own blog too ;)